|God is present to us. Our task is to remain alert and watchful so that we might appreciate his presence to us. But sometimes we are found to be less than attentive. In fact, at times, we are simply asleep. We are not wilfully ignoring the Lord, but we have tired ourselves out, or dulled our senses to the point that we cannot perceive him. Whether we are asleep or living like zombies, we all find ourselves overtaken by the cares of the world and the private preoccupations of our egos that we run the risk of missing the Lord’s coming completely.
We can stay alert by being faithful to our prayer. When we pray, we can share the tiredness of the day and the worries of our lives with the one who will most intimately understand us and desires only to console and care for us. Many times people say they fall asleep during prayer. But this is perhaps because we are praying at the wrong time or in the wrong way. We should not feel guilty about this. The Lord know what is in our hearts and may very well be the source of the rest that we need.
Unless we talk to God, we will not befriend or understand God. Those who pray recount how God can often come so suddenly to us in prayer. Much of prayer is waiting, preparing ourselves to listen to God so that we might catch that sudden insight or feeling that we know without a doubt is from God and intended for us uniquely.
Prayer is putting ourselves in God’s presence because God is always with us. It is us who have to shift our perceptions so that we can consciously become aware of God’s presence. When we sleep or allow ourselves to live unawares, we fail to notice God’s presence to us.
Let’s pray today, as we continue to ask for hope, that we might pray and bring ourselves more often into God’s loving presence. One way of doing this is by looking back over our day before we fall asleep. We sometimes call this prayer the ‘Examen’. It is not a judgmental prayer, but rather one of growing awareness for the times we were more, or less, present to God.